Monday, February 19, 2007

mommiehood

years ago, before having children, i could never understand mothers who did nothing but talk about their babies or children. but now... it seems that's all i focus on. isn't it interesting how life changes and what becomes important in one's life and what becomes insignificant?!

now...it seems that i spend my days changing diapers and tending to a little baby that sleeps, eats, and cries. nothing else seems to matter to me right now. i see why they say that motherhood changes you... because that, indeed, is true. i feel like a different person. my priorities are different, my concerns are different, my thoughts are different, my desires are different.... i'm a changed woman! ;)

life has been good. the baby is a sweet baby. he's sleeping right now on his daddy's belly... something that he basically refuses to do w/ me unless he's in a really good mood. usually he cries and pulls up his legs - wanting a different position and such and won't get comfortable when i try to do this w/ him. but when his daddy picks him up, he falls asleep and will lay like that for hours... his daddy can even burp him better than me... don't know how that can be, but it is.

i'm doing pretty good on my own. not sure that anyone believed i could do it - other than the hubby, friends and my family, but it's working. hashim helps me thru the night... we both get up to fix bottles, burp him and such, so it's going pretty well. my in-laws have been driving me insane, so i'm staying home for the time being. i think the baby could sense it because he would throw fits when we'd go there, and being home, he doesn't do that stuff. yeah, he gets upset when he has gas, which has been a lot lately, and crazy at it may sound, he's only been waking up once in the night and then sleeps until 6:30 in the morning most days - altho his last feeding time before you lay down to sleep is about midnight or a little later.

lastnight or early this morn., he woke up at 4 and wouldn't go back to sleep. i thought he'd never close his eyes as he was crying from gas pains.... but w/ a lot of soothing and rubbing of his tummy, he drifted off to sleep. he woke up again at 6:30, then at 8:30, and so on and so on. it sure makes for a tiring day.... you tend to find sleep when he sleeps and then wake up more tired than you were when you closed your eyes.... but.... it'll get better... it'll just take some time.

we both are tired.... the sun comes up fast when you're waking up throughout the night.... and wouldn't you know it... i used to suffer from insomnia, but now, all i want is sleep! :)

anyway... the baby is good... momma is good and daddy is good.

7 comments:

Olivia said...

Good to hear it.

I used to sleep like that on my dad. Like I'd gone splat. I think it's because daddy's frontal surfaces are flat, and there is nothing in the way of the soothing sound of his heartbeat.

Even as an adult, if I am hugging my dad, I'll stop a moment, tell him to stop talking, and listen to his heart again. It never changes; I know its sound, and it is a special moment. But...I don't know my Mum's quite so well, even though I've spent as much time hugging one as the other! So there you go ;)

(Don't care how old I am, I am not ashamed to be a softie when it comes to loving them.)

still breathing said...

i never could have imagined how having a baby can change so much about moms!!!!

& why r the inlaws always a pain in the ass???

i'm happy for u...that last line is awesome!!!! may it always remain this way :)

Khalid said...

Good to know you're getting better everday :).

You know, I had a few talks with an American colleague of mine and he has a 6 month old baby and he tells me that it's a nightmare getting a solid sleep. It's the exact thing that you described but regardless of all the pain and sleepless nights, he forgets all of it when he just sees his baby.

Hang in there, it'll get more exciting as you go. Good to know all if fine with you and the family :).

Peceli and Wendy's Blog said...

There are some very easy days and there are some tough times when a baby is crying. Just hang in there in those times. Work out strategies to help calm the baby and yourself - singing songs or playing music, massage, a quiet drink of Milo or something. Don't rush, this is your time to slow down and let the rest of the stupid world go by.
w.

The Moody Minstrel said...

& why r the inlaws always a pain in the ass???

I think being a pain in the ass is part of the job description of being an in-law. I wouldn't be surprised if, in spite of my best efforts, my future son- or daughter-in-law thinks of ME as a PITA.

Sleep is a rare luxury during the first couple of months of a baby's life. When you finally get over that hump you'll truly come to appreciate a good night's slumber!

Hmm...haven't done this for a while...

For sure, it can wear a soul out.
"Z"s are so hard to come by; no doubt!
But you'll soon miss it, mother,
Even hope for another,
'Cause that's what it's really about!

Puppy said...

Hello Dear Tooners,

Very interesting post, and it is good to hear that everything is ok with three of you. Yeah its tiring most of my friends went through it, but no matter how hard it was they never regret.

I will be happy to hear about Naief, so keep talking about him :)

Good to hear that you are managing all that, i knew you could make it. So hang in there and sleep when its possible.

Warm Regards

Puppy.

Leilouta said...

I am happy to hear that everything is fine. You shouldn't feel guilty talking about your baby. He is your first and this is a new experience to you.