years ago, before having children, i could never understand mothers who did nothing but talk about their babies or children. but now... it seems that's all i focus on. isn't it interesting how life changes and what becomes important in one's life and what becomes insignificant?!
now...it seems that i spend my days changing diapers and tending to a little baby that sleeps, eats, and cries. nothing else seems to matter to me right now. i see why they say that motherhood changes you... because that, indeed, is true. i feel like a different person. my priorities are different, my concerns are different, my thoughts are different, my desires are different.... i'm a changed woman! ;)
life has been good. the baby is a sweet baby. he's sleeping right now on his daddy's belly... something that he basically refuses to do w/ me unless he's in a really good mood. usually he cries and pulls up his legs - wanting a different position and such and won't get comfortable when i try to do this w/ him. but when his daddy picks him up, he falls asleep and will lay like that for hours... his daddy can even burp him better than me... don't know how that can be, but it is.
i'm doing pretty good on my own. not sure that anyone believed i could do it - other than the hubby, friends and my family, but it's working. hashim helps me thru the night... we both get up to fix bottles, burp him and such, so it's going pretty well. my in-laws have been driving me insane, so i'm staying home for the time being. i think the baby could sense it because he would throw fits when we'd go there, and being home, he doesn't do that stuff. yeah, he gets upset when he has gas, which has been a lot lately, and crazy at it may sound, he's only been waking up once in the night and then sleeps until 6:30 in the morning most days - altho his last feeding time before you lay down to sleep is about midnight or a little later.
lastnight or early this morn., he woke up at 4 and wouldn't go back to sleep. i thought he'd never close his eyes as he was crying from gas pains.... but w/ a lot of soothing and rubbing of his tummy, he drifted off to sleep. he woke up again at 6:30, then at 8:30, and so on and so on. it sure makes for a tiring day.... you tend to find sleep when he sleeps and then wake up more tired than you were when you closed your eyes.... but.... it'll get better... it'll just take some time.
we both are tired.... the sun comes up fast when you're waking up throughout the night.... and wouldn't you know it... i used to suffer from insomnia, but now, all i want is sleep! :)
anyway... the baby is good... momma is good and daddy is good.